Wednesday, January 23, 2013


Changes are inevitable.  

Funny story.
We have developed a lovely new morning routine.  Emma gets up early, comes to cuddle me, I make her breakfast while she tests her glucose and injects.  She watches cartoons (in such a lovely childlike fashion!) while I make her lunch, and we chat while we wait for her to test her glucose once more before we leave for school.  It really is lemonade from the lemons... 

This morning, Marty had a different schedule, throwing our routine out the window.  So hard to not be mad at him (for living in his own house!) in protection of my baby.  So I tell her this morning "Sometimes you just gotta roll with the punches"... As soon as I said it, I'm thinking "REALLY??? I'm telling her to roll with the punches when she's doing that so much lately???"  I made a little joke out of it, to let her know that I understood.  I go upstairs, in tears, and Marty tried to comfort me.  I just bristled, telling him how hard this change in our routine was this morning.  He said "sometimes, you just gotta deal with change Jacki"... I laughed, but really wanted to just punch him.

Challenges are inevitable.  But I guess what I'm saying is that sometimes there IS an easier way to deal with them.  Sometimes, wine IS the answer...

I love you sister.  I wish our paths crossed in a closer locale, but I appreciate the relationship we have.  I respect the life you live - and love the lives you've created.

I'm going to try a sample of the gluten free/diabetic friendly brownies.  Then I'll probably have another good cry.  Then, I'll be so grateful for a kid who is amazing, especially in this challenge.  And grateful for a hubby that didn't smack me on his way out the door.